THROWBACK THURSDAY–Jenna Presley Made A Mistake

Jenna Presley was one of those gonzo girl who comes along every once in a while and just wowed the hell out of everybody.  Presley was young and sweet and happily did everything and had a blast doing it.  She commanded top rates and was on every major companies' boxcovers.  She was the sweet eighteen-year-old who was rumored to be in contract talks with Vivid and Wicked and virtually everyone who was anyone who had contract girls.  

On set, she was graceful, kind, sweet, cooperative and made everyone's day go easier.  She seemed together in every sense.  I personally remember her coming to set with all of her lingerie in individual plastic freezer bags.  She readily told what she had been shot in before and I remember thinking what everyone else who shot her thought--that she would be a huge star and that she could pretty much write her own ticket as far as what she wanted to do in adult.

I remember thinking back in 2006 how amazing that would be to be in her position.  Presley started as a stripper, working her way through college when we was approached about becoming a porn star.  I could totally understand where she came from.  I hated college and I was working as a peep show girl back in the 1990s when I was approached about doing porn.  I did a solo scene--me and an old-school cream-colored C-cell battery taking vibrator that the "director" gave me to use.  That scene went OK.  I closed my eyes and thought about the boyfriend that I was ridiculously in love with and just gave the camera all the orgasms I could.  

Presley was an amazing girl--squirting like crazy, finding every bit of enjoyment in her scenes and young and fresh.  Every guy in the business wanted to work with her and her scenes were passionate and high-energy.  She fucking rocked.  I really hoped that she would get everything she wanted out of porn.

Presley's scenes looked as great on video as they did in person shooting them.  Every critic wrote about her and how much the camera loved her and how she damn sure loved it back.  in 2007, Presley was nominated by AVN for Best New Starlet and Best Solo Scene.  Presley lost Best New Starlet that year to Naomi--a girl that had this unreal body and who disappeared from the industry shortly after she won the award.  I remember seeing Presley on the AVN Adult Entertainment Expo show floor after she lost.

She looked pissed off as hell itself.

Back in the 1990s, I shot one blowjob scene for the same "director".  I loved giving head and did it a lot as a teenager to keep from getting pregnant like a lot of my friends did in the very small town I was from so doing it wasn't a stretch.  I just hadn't done it before on anyone I felt nothing for.  All the sex work that I had done before was on myself or on a female friend behind two layers of bulletproof glass.  I fellated this stranger while he used the camera to document what I was doing.  After he came in my mouth, I swallowed his load and he ended the scene.  He made an excuse about needing to pay me tomorrow.  I never got paid and I never let anyone use a videocamera to shoot me again--a bondage photo shoot, sure--but no video.

Presley was using drugs when she wasn't on-set.  That's probably why no one signed her as their contract girl.  She made multiple announcements that she was no longer going to do boy/girl scenes and then continued to do them.  Her scenes were still scalding hot and she still got top dollar to do everything on-camera.  

There were new implants, changing Presley's perfect, natural chest.

There was the death of her boyfriend.

There was taking a break from porn and finding Jesus Christ as her personal savior.

Then she came back to perform, doing everything one hundred and ten percent like she always did.  

Back in the 1990s, I tried pretty much every drug that was out there.  I loved and got dumped by the boyfriend that I loved.  I knew that porn wasn't for me as a performer but I loved the images.  As a person writing about this stuff for a living, I have made a point of never meeting the number one fantasy girl who got me into this stuff in the first place so that I still have a place of fantasy that I can go in my head when times are tough.

Eventually, the party was over for me.  No more drugs, just some weed, occasionally.  I took responsibility for my own shit, for the most part.

Presley left porn at the end of 2012 and made a huge deal of finding Jesus again.  This time, she connected herself with the XXXChurch people who like to preach about porn addiction and talk about how all girls in porn are suffering.  Presley claimed that she needed drugs to numb her pain from having consensual sex on camera and that she had attempted suicide multiple times.  

In 2013, she appeared on the Barbara Walters television talk show "The View" with her pastor from XXXChurch to talk about finding God and said ""I was searching for love in all the wrong places. I came from a childhood that wasn't the greatest," Presley--now going publicly by her real name of Brittni Ruiz said. She went on saying that, "in the beginning I felt 'beautiful,' I felt like I had found my self-worth, and after a while I felt destroyed, hopeless — I felt helpless. I tried to commit suicide several times. I was miserable."

It's a fucking shame that Presley decided to find misery in a business of pleasure.  In this life, you get to have what you want to have.  You can surround yourself with the life you want.  Presley chose drugs, misery and pain.  That's really too fucking bad.  The sweet-looking stripper living in Santa Barbara should have never been on-camera.  Some are happy she was, though.

Good luck out there, kiddo.  Maybe take responsibility for your own choices in the future?

All images with this Throwback Thursday are courtesy of Elegant Angel.  Thanks!  Here she is with Jayden James and AVN Male Performer of the Year Manuel Ferrara in their scene that was nominated for Best Threeway from the William H.-directed video "Party Girls".  My own solo and BJ scenes have disappeared into the land of VHS as far as I know but you know what?  I don't regret a fucking thing.

Party Girls at AEBN