The following excerpt is from "Lost at Sea" by Peony.

Has it been that long? The clocks and the calendars are conspiring once again. Surely not? Have I been wandering, trapped in this haze, paralyzed by the thought of you? What day is it?

I shuffle to the bathroom amidst the chaos of the house. Things don't seem to be where I left them, nor do they seem to be the same. Nothing seems to be sane either, anymore. My reflection in the mirror stares back at me with shiny glass eyes. I am no longer seeing through these strange holes in my head and navigate mothlike and by memory, hearing and feeling for the last traces of you.

Showering mechanically, I scrape at my skin and the nest of my hair. The hot water trickles out and turns cold. I stand there as my rubber flesh changes from pink to white, and my veins shrink from the surface and nestle closer to my bones. I suppose it must be very cold, for my skin is prickled and protesting. I hazily ponder the idea that my brain might have severed its ties to my body and is bobbing listlessly, without anchor, in the sea of my skull. I used to hate cold showers.

Of their own volition my feet find their way to the bath mat, my hands to the towel and I'm rubbing robotically. I'm temporarily distracted by the absurdity of my joints sticking out at peculiar angles. Was I always this disjointed and bony?

Emerging from the bathroom I survey the damage. The house is littered with remnants edged with the feeling of emptiness, like a fairground after the circus has left town. Even the sound of my exhalations is loud in comparison and swells out into the room in ragged clouds. My leaden feet slide onto the shards of the glass long since shattered; I suppose it must be somewhere, somewhere down there.

I wonder how long I stood there, naked in the midst of the aftermath, blood collecting under my toes, staring blankly at the enormous hole in the shell of this decaying house. It loomed large and imposing, a porthole to another dimension, the name hanging rustily on hinges holed in my head. It's a door. The front door.

I stopped trying to make sense of it and decided to surrender. If I just give in, maybe I'll find a way out. There's no sense in fighting an irrepressible tide. Perhaps I'm walking in circles following reddened footsteps on floorboards that will probably never end.

You. A synapse fires inside my head. Somewhere near the surface I can see a faint glow fractured by surface ripples. I must be a long way under. We shouldn't have. We did. It's done and cannot be undone. We're on the other side of that which had grown so large between us, the lust that devoured us, swelled fat from the absurdity of it.

You again. Brighter now, refracting like strewn crystals from an exploded chandelier. You. The thought of you burns into a focal point with a brightness that is piercing. I'm rapidly ascending with no time to adjust, chest contorted from the pressure as I struggle to acclimatize. There is a roar in my ears as I rocket to the surface in an explosion of gray water and torn foam.

You again. I am awkwardly floating as I suck air through the cracks in my clenched teeth. I'm suddenly painfully aware of the dimension of space beneath and around me; it is terrifying being without the comfort of corners and walls.

You did this to me. With your hands that carved channels in my skin as you twisted my limbs to your pleasing and fed the burning inside me with pieces of you. You did this with words that pierced my insides with hooks that pinned me open, splayed and inviting, all yours for the taking. And yes, you took all of it, what I gave and what I didn't, you took it all and left me nothing save the taste of your skin and the weight of my heart in my hands.

I let you do this to me. At first we'd adhered to the rules and the rituals. The long lingering contact and words loaded and coated, then sitting so close you could smell the reek of the need burning under my skin. You'd played a deft hand and forced me to spread all that I held, faceup and exposed. There is nothing more dangerous than one with none left to lose and though you might have won, being defeated was sweetened by the sound of my name on your tongue.

I'd read the words in your eyes and the space between lines as I took my last look at the shore before diving headfirst. It was with such little tenderness that you pushed me beneath you and spread my limbs with your hands. These weren't lover's lips that stretched tight to expose my teeth that sank deep in your skin.

The pace was frenetic, fueled by the burning and the wheels sprung loose in my mind. There was no turning back or slowing the rhythm of the pounding both within and outside of my head. Skin flayed and breath burnt from the anger inside us, there is little to exchange when conquest leaves bodies ravished and broken. I had known it would be like this. I had hungered for the taste of it, flesh throbbing with the want of it, the want of you, to be taken, submerged, and surrounded, drowned and destroyed.

You were relentless and I was remorseless, for a time, just a short time, and then.

And then, it was over.

Laid beside without touching, silent and spent, I'm facing away from the fact of your face, from the sight of the redness of my nails on your skin. You've turned from the image that's too much like another's, the other, another, the one I was not.

Excerpted from Best of Best Women's Erotica 2 written by Violet Blue and published by Cleis Press.

The book is also on sale at Amazon.

Copyright (c) 2010 by Cleis Press.

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Yes, in order to revamp the cable business, Jack decided to pursue the untapped market of "porn" for women: or, as demonstrated in the clip above, a video of a handsome man who's just dying to listen to a woman chatter on and whine about her problems. Obviously, the premise is sad, sexist, and misinformed; it's also just plain lazy and unoriginal.

The writers from "30 Rock" aren't the first people to tap into the brilliant idea that women get off from mundane chatter—in fact, there's already an entire series of books devoted to the idea. Yes, the Cambridge Women's Pornography Cooperative has a whole franchise devoted to the idea that what women really want is to watch fully clothed men doing chores around the house. Sorry, but that's not the kind of thing that gets this woman's engine revving.

There is a lot more that I could say about just what kinds of porn get the ladies hot and bothered, but perhaps it's best to keep it simple. In the words of the venerable web comic XKCD: "In my porn, people fuck."

· "30 Rock" (nbc.com)

Confirmed guests include Tristan Taormino, Shine Louise Houston and Candida Royalle (and we've heard a rumor that Madison Young, Courtney Trouble, April Flores, Dylan Ryan, and other assorted crush objects will be making appearances, too). In addition to the awards (to be held on April 9), there will also be a screening and roundtable discussion on April 8—and that's not just any screening, either. It's the screening that will determine the winner of the Viewer's Choice Award.

But wait, there's more! FPA have teamed up with Good Releasing to create the Emerging Filmmaker Award, a $750 cash prize for a first-time filmmaker (intended to help them complete or secure distribution for their movie). Are you a first-time filmmaker in need of $750? Full details can be found here.

And, last but certainly not least, if you have a film that you'd like to see recognized for a Feminist Porn Award, please note that the nomination period is almost at an end—in fact, you only have until January 31 to submit, so you better get on it. (As always, details for submissions can be found on the Feminist Porn Awards website.)

· Feminist Porn Awards 2010 (goodforher.com)
· Thumbnail star: Feminist Porn Award winner Madison Young, shot by Ellen Stagg (madisonbound.com + staggstreet.com)

Despite all the hubbub about erect penises and such, Filament is not your standard smut rag. Rather than being packed to the gills with naughty pictorials (and a few "articles" to balance things out), Filament is more a thought-provoking read with a few hot picture spreads nestled in between. Covering topics ranging from capoeira and the science of cerebral palsy to pegging and erotica covers, Filament feels a bit like a glossier version of Bitch plus some penises—or maybe a more broad-based Nerve magazine with way more pictures of naked men. Whatever you want to call it, we like it (and we'll like it even more if they make the erections more plentiful!).

Model: Marcus Thomas
Photo by David Davis
Filament Magazine (filamentmagazine.com)
Model: Marcus Thomas
Photo by David Davis
Filament Magazine (filamentmagazine.com)
Photo by Britt Marie Trensmar
Filament Magazine (filamentmagazine.com)
Photo by Britt Marie Trensmar
Filament Magazine (filamentmagazine.com)
Model: Emmy Jackson
Photo by Lex Machina
Filament Magazine (filamentmagazine.com)

Apparently, this is the first and only all male pornstar revue (which is a little sad, if you think about it). We're not sure why it took so long to get these men out on stage, shaking their tailfeathers...but for all the ladies who swoon over these boys' big muscles (the ones in their chests, you perv), this one's (finally) for you.

· The XXX-Men (thexxx-men.com)

The 2009 Good For Her Feminist Porn Award winners are:

Hottest Kink Movie
Perversions of Lesbian Lust Vol.1 | Madison Young; Madison Bound Productions

Steamiest Trans Scene
Crash Pad Series 2- Unlocked | Shine Louise Houston; Pink and White Productions

Sexiest Straight Movie
Intense Desires | Eli Cross ; Lennox Films

Hottest Mature Couple's Movie
Bill and Desiree: Love is Timeless | Tony Comstock; Comstock Films

Most Sensual Softcore & Golden Beaver Award for Canadian Content
Man of My Dreams | Mimi Balfour; Cleopatra Productions

Steamiest Educational Series
Red Hot Touch Series | New World Sex Education

Sexiest Dyke Movie
One Night Stand (Pour Une Nuit) | Emilie Jouvet; Hyst Productions

Most Deliciously Diverse Cast
Roulette | Courtney Trouble; Nofauxxx Productions

Heartthrob of the Year
Dylan Ryan | For work in Strap-on Motel, Sex Mannequin, Crash Pad Series Volume 3, Champion, Perversions of Lesbian Lust: Volume 1 and Lesbian Life: Real Sex San Francisco.

Heartthrob of the Year
Tyler Knight | For work in Chemistry 4 and Intense Desires

Indie Porn Pioneer
Madison Young

Movie of the Year
Champion | Shine Louise Houston; Pink and White Productions

Honorable Mentions:
Voluptuous Biker Babes | Carlos Batts; Adam and Eve Pictures
Matinee | Jennifer Lyon Bell; Blue Artichoke Films
Couch Surfers: Trans Men in Action | Trannywood Pictures; Brazen Garage Squad Productions
Skateboard Kink Freak | Maria Beatty; Bleu Productions
Barcelona Sex Project | Erika Lust; Lust Films

· Feminist Porn Awards 2009 (goodforher.com)
· Thumbnail: Courtney Trouble accepts her award (flickr.com)

The full list contains an impressive 46 films, with more than a few of our official crush objects finding their way on to the list (hey, we have good taste in porn!). We're keeping our fingers crossed that next year's list is even longer.

· 2009 Feminist Porn Award Nominees (goodforher.com)
· Thumbnail: Penny Flame and Anthony Rosano in feminist porn "Penny Flame's Expert Guide To Handjobs"

10. Suze Randall: "Too Naughty To Say No"

9. Candida Royalle: "Under The Covers"

8. Mason

7. Jamye Waxman
"Exploring The 'O'"

6. Diana Devoe

5. Kimberly Kane: "Morphine"

4. Stormy Daniels
"Operation Desert Stormy" (gamelink.com)

3. Belladonna
"My Ass Is Haunted"

2. Celeste
"Stoya Video Nasty"

1. Tristan Taormino
"Chemistry 4: The Orgy Edition"

Honorable Mentions (some of whom we think should have been on the list): Joanna Angel, Ashley Blue, Dana Dearmond, Aunt Gertrude

· The Top Ten Women Directors In Porn (xcritic.com)

• Le Chagrin (chagrin.tumblr.com, via Indie Nudes)
• Thumbnails via Explicité + Claude Fauville + Nestor Alvarez Zeballo @ chagrin.tumblr.com

· "Lesbians demand more and better porn" (pinknews.co.uk)

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· The Crash Pad: Unlocked And Extra Hot

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· "Tatum Reed fucked by a dyke"

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· Comstock Films' "Ashley & Kisha"

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· Madison Young Is No Blushing "Bride Of Sin"

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· Amateur Lesbians (PornHub)

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· Stella & Sandra 'Butterfly' (YouPorn)

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Also check out these lesbian-friendly porn companies:

· Pink & White Productions (pinkwhite.biz)
· Good Dyke Porn (gooddykeporn.com)
· Blowfish (blowfish.com)
· Comstock Films (comstockfilms.com)

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Previously: Preview: Pink and White's "In Search Of The Wild Kingdom", Feminist Porn Awards Celebrate Porn We Really Like, Feminist Porn Awards: This One's For The Ladies, Porn For (Straight) Women: We Know You're Out There

Thankfully, Nina Hartley is here to offer her assistance, in the form of "Nina Hartley's Guide To Bondage Sex." With the help of bondage model and expert Claire Adams, Nina walks bondage beginners through all the basics of getting down and dirty while bound ... and throws in some super hot sex scenes by way of illustration.

Depending on your expectations, your enjoyment of the film may vary. For one thing, this is definitely some education with a side of porn and not the other way around: the film goes a full half hour without anyone getting naked, and the sex scenes themselves are heavily laced with instruction and tips.

Additionally, the film focuses on women tying up women and men tying up women, without a single bound man in sight. Yes, there are elements of bondage that are universal, and the film offers helpful insights for anyone looking to get bound and gagged. But if you're hoping for, say, some serious cock and ball torture action, this isn't the flick for you.

Nerds that we are, we still enjoyed learning the ins and outs of bondage sex—like what positions are best, how to tie a good knot, and all the fun little bondage gadgets. But we'd still recommend viewing this video when you're in a learning mood, not a fapping mood. You're bound to get something good out of watching the video, but it just might not be until after you've watched it, when you're putting Nina's lessons to good use.

• "Nina Hartley's Guide To Bondage Sex" (adameve.com)
• Order: "Nina Hartley's Guide To Bondage Sex" (Adult DVD Empire)

So we've decided to test your knowledge of male porn performers. Below the jump, we've assembled some action shots of the seven men who made the cut for our roundup; your task is to match the man to the cock shot by placing your guesses in the comments section. Get them all right and you could win your very own copy of the Cosmo Kama Sutra. Or bragging rights. Whichever makes you happier.

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Pornstar #1:

Pornstar #2:

Pornstar #3:

Pornstar #4:

Pornstar #5:

Pornstar #6:

Pornstar #7:

The fine print: You must be over 18 to enter the contest, and you may submit only one entry per commenter account. Standard contest rules apply.

Though Cinema Erotique has a smaller library than some other sites we've seen —at present, there's only about 30 movies and 31 shorter striptease clips—the movies themselves are a bit more involved than, say, the latest Bang Bus update. Running about 20 minutes each, the movies run the gamut from girl with toy to girl/girl to girl/boy, with a bit of spanking and bondage thrown in for extra kicks. Don't have 20 minutes to devote to porn? Those striptease clips like the one above can help make the most of your busy, busy schedule.

And if you're in the mood for photos, Cinema Erotique has those too. And for all the nerds out there, there's the "Editing Room," with behind the scenes shots, movie scripts, and soundtracks. (We're not quite sure why you'd want to read the script for "Dial S For Sex" — but hey, to each their own.)

The one downside (and it's a huge downside for many of us here at Fleshbot) is that Cinema Erotique's offerings are only available in Windows Media format. We're not sure where that's acceptable—France, maybe?—but it made us sour a bit on what it otherwise a site well worth checking out ... though not enough to totally dampen our enjoyment of soon-to-be classics like "Internet Bride."

· Cinema Erotique (cinemaerotique.com)

See which Fleshbot faves were honored with their own anal pleasure devices after the jump.

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Smutty Schoolteacher of the Year (Educational Title): Tristan Taormino's Expert Guide to Oral Sex Part 1 Cunnilingus and Part 2 Fellatio | Tristan Taormino; Vivid Ed

Boundary Breaker of the Year: Buck Angel

Hottest Dyke Film: Crash Pad Series Volume 1 | Shine Louise Houston; Pink and White Productions Blowfish Video

Golden Beaver Award for Canadian Content: Bren Ryder | www.gooddykeporn.com

Best Bi Scene: Female Fantasies | Petra Joy; Strawberry Seductress Productions

Most Tantalizing Trans Film: Trans Entities: The Nasty Love of Papi' and Wil | Morty Diamond; Morty Diamond Productions

Deliciously Diverse Cast: Trans Entities: The Nasty Love of Papi' and Wil | Morty Diamond; Morty Diamond Productions

Movie of the Year: Five Hot Stories for Her | Erika Lust; Lust Films

· Feminist Porn Awards (goodforher.com)
· Good For Her's Feminist Porn Awards (nakedcity.com)

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Like many of its predecessors, Kiss My Bliss features photos of both male and female models—and in some cases, both at the same time. The photos have an innocent, girl- or boy-next-door feel; the vibe is not unlike that of fellow Aussie site, Abby Winters. Fake tits and Lucite stilettos are nowhere to be seen. And yes, there is pubic hair.

The site is largely, if not exclusively, softcore, with an artistic bent. Though there are shots of couples, we didn't see any hardcore action (or even anything close: hard cocks are few and far between on this site).

There are still some kinks that need to be worked out; most frustrating: the site's navigation is unintuitive and cumbersome. But since Kiss My Bliss is new to the market, we'll give it the benefit of the doubt. It's exciting to see some a new entry into the catalogue of progressive online porn—here's hoping that the Australian version of altporn fares better than its American cousin.

· Kiss My Bliss (kissmybliss.net)